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The moments when you stop recognizing yourself

  One day I woke up and felt different. I could not say why — it was just a feeling living somewhere inside me. I went to the bathroom and looked in the mirror. It was me, a tired version, but still me. Yet something within me did not feel the same. Something had changed, and I could almost see how this other person was trying to get out and live my life. I told myself it was just a period and it would pass. I thought that once I took a break, I would return to myself again. But weeks later there was still no time to rest. And slowly, the other person began living my life. This person was nervous, anxious, and a bit mean. Unsatisfied, raising his voice, reacting with negativity. Impatient, not particularly kind, tolerating nothing and no one. Patience simply did not exist for him. I did not want him there, but I did not have the strength to fight him. The exhaustion was too big. Inside, I felt confused, disgusted, and ashamed of my actions. I felt lonely and misunders...
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A Night Out

 

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Nobody can prepare you for how life changes after you have a baby. You know that it will be different, but the expectations versus reality hit you hard.


The village where we live did not have electricity for nearly two days, so we had to go to Vidin and sleep at my in-laws'. This gave us an opportunity that only parents of toddlers know how rare it could be – to go out in the evening! Yes, the words out and evening are in the same sentence, and yes – without the child!


We had dinner with our little boy, after that we put him to sleep and ran out of the house. Veni and I had a meeting with Roni (my friend and piano teacher) and Ivan (her boyfriend) at 9 p.m. – amazing! I was jumping in the park, feeling so free and happy! This park along the Danube River is very romantic, and at night, with all its lights, it is very attractive and magical.


We went for a walk; Roni and I were ahead, talking about everything possible, and the boys were talking about something not that interesting, in my opinion, behind us.
We went to a bar to have a drink. I had a glass of wine (to be honest, the third for my evening), and we had a great laugh. It was a lovely night, full of fun and nice company. I cannot wait to live in Vidin so we can go out more often.

 

 

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