The memory test

A few days ago, I had a conversation with a close friend about her partner and his struggles with stress.
That reminded me of something I want to share with you — something that helped me a lot in my OCD journey.

I used to have a lot of “what if” thoughts.

To explain it better, I want to share this definition from a UK clinic:

“One of the most common types of intrusive thoughts are known as ‘what if’ thoughts. These often involve catastrophic or irrational scenarios, creating a cycle of anxiety and fear. These thoughts can revolve around different areas of life, such as personal safety, relationships, health, or moral values.

What sets them apart is their obsessive nature, leading people to constantly question and doubt themselves, seek reassurance, or engage in compulsive behaviors to reduce anxiety. It’s important to understand that these thoughts are a product of OCD and not a reflection of reality.”

You can read the full article here:
https://researchforyou.co.uk/mac-news/understanding-ocd-what-if-thoughts/

My therapist once did a memory test with me.

At that time, I was terrified that I might have done something awful — something unacceptable — and simply not remember it.

The “what if” thoughts were constant.
I needed reassurance all the time.

One day, my therapist said, “Today, we’re going to do a test.”
I love tests, so I actually got excited.

I scored above 90%.

My memory is very, very good.

Realizing this gave me a sense of safety.
It made me feel more confident — and even now, it helps me when such thoughts appear.

My advice would be to do this kind of test with a professional.
You could ask a friend to help, but it’s much better to work with someone who knows what they’re doing.

I hope this helps someone.

If you’ve ever questioned your own memory or reality:

→ How I Learned Not to Believe Everything I Think  

→ Chained