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Hi and welcome to my messy mind! It took me 10 years to finally step up and talk about this. I still do not feel brave enough to do it but even if I help one person, it will worth it. My name is Kristina and I have OCD with intrusive thoughts. Writing helps me relax, focus and keep my mind calmer. I really hope that my blog will be beneficial for others who struggle just like me. I do not have a medical degree so everything I am sharing is my personal experience and how I am dealing with it.
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Guest post - Roni in Japan - part 1
My First Trip to Japan and First Real Drunken Night –
Osaka Edition
Japan has been my ultimate dream destination for as long as I can remember. I
won’t lie—my love affair with this country began with anime. I’ve probably
watched over 500 series, and my all-time favorite is one of the longest-running
ones: One Piece. But what started with anime quickly turned into a
fascination with Japanese culture and tradition. From the Edo period and the
samurai era, through the Meiji Restoration, to modern-day Japan—everything
about its history and customs captivates me deeply.
So, when the opportunity finally came for me to visit Japan in person, I didn’t hesitate.
The Journey Begins: Anxieties and
Airports
As expected, the journey was long and exhausting. My
anxiety certainly didn’t help. I must have checked three times whether I had
turned everything off in my apartment before leaving. And I constantly
double-checked my passport every five minutes. On top of that, I kept
obsessively watching the clock to make sure we wouldn’t miss the flight.
In moments like these, I’m incredibly grateful for my boyfriend and his calm demeanor. While I was nervously panicking at the boarding gate, convinced we were going to be late, he just calmly scrolled through his phone and kept saying, “We’ve got time, relax.”
First Impressions of Japan: Kindness
and Cleanliness
Now, let’s talk about Japan. The first thing I can
confirm is absolutely true—the people are incredibly kind and helpful. Yes,
most don’t speak English, but that doesn’t really get in the way. My first
encounter with this happened even before our vacation officially began.
We landed in Tokyo and had to catch the Shinkansen to
Osaka, where we planned to stay for a few days. As first-timers, we managed to
get a bit lost—even with Google Maps. We found the right train station but
couldn’t locate the correct platform or figure out how to buy tickets.
And then—right on cue—our savior appeared: an older
Japanese woman wearing gloves and holding a bottle of cleaning spray. She
spotted us struggling and came over. We showed her on our phones where we were
trying to go. She first helped a group of tourists she was already guiding,
made sure they got their tickets, and sent them off. Then she turned to us, led
us across the station, and helped us purchase our tickets.
She didn’t speak a word of English but communicated with us entirely in Japanese. Thanks to all the anime I’ve watched, I actually understood bits and pieces! She wanted to tell us to go to Platform 3 but didn’t know how, so she simply pointed with her fingers and said, “One, two, san.” San means three in Japanese. After she sorted us out, she went back to her work.
Exploring Osaka: Parks, Temples, and
Unexpected Joys
Osaka is a stunning city and absolutely worth
visiting—just like the rest of Japan. Of course, we saw the famous Osaka Castle.
While the castle itself isn’t the most breathtaking landmark, the park
surrounding it is truly beautiful. We even stumbled upon a traditional wedding
ceremony there.
I highly recommend visiting the Nagai Botanical
Garden. They have a nighttime light show that is both magical and serene. What
makes it unique is how the lights are integrated with the plants and
trees—colors and shapes dance across the foliage, accompanied by soothing
music. It's a peaceful haven, especially for fans of meditation. The crowd
control is also great—they let people in groups at intervals, so it never feels
crowded.
We visited countless other spots—from parks like Ryokuchi-koen to sacred temples like Shitennoji. One morning, we aimlessly wandered around and stumbled upon a gorgeous street filled with old temples and traditional wooden buildings. Pure magic.
Dotombori Nights: My First Real
Drunken Experience
We stayed in the Dotombori area, which gave us the
perfect opportunity to enjoy Osaka’s nightlife. And it’s here that I
experienced something new: my first real night of drinking.
Now, here’s a bit of personal context—I suffer from
anxiety and a condition called paruresis (a.k.a. shy bladder syndrome). That
means I often can’t pee if I know someone’s waiting on me or is nearby. It
doesn’t matter if it's in public restrooms, at friends’ houses, or sometimes
even at home. It can get so bad that I’m in pain, bouncing around the bathroom,
and still unable to relax enough to go. Nothing works—not jumping, not pressing
on my bladder.
Enter the miracle of Japanese bathrooms.
First of all, they’re everywhere and super easy to
find. That alone makes a massive difference, because I don’t have to ask anyone
where the bathroom is (which, in my head, signals to everyone that I’m going to
pee and that they’re mentally “waiting”). Second, they’re spotless. Even public
restrooms in parks are sparkling clean. Third—and this is the cherry on
top—they come equipped with features like sound machines, auto-flush, and
bidets. And most importantly? No one knocks. Not even once. People respect your
space. If someone’s in the stall, they just wait. If someone knocked, it would
be game over for me.
So what happened that night?
For the first time in my life, I could actually drink, have fun, and not worry about having to cut the night short because of my bladder condition. That may sound silly to some, but it was liberating. Normally, I’d stop drinking halfway through the evening, excuse myself when it got too bad, and head home in discomfort. Not this time. I drank. I danced. I laughed. I even threw up—and I was still proud. Because I finally got to enjoy myself without anxiety holding me back.
Next Stop: Kyoto
The next day, we boarded a train to Kyoto. That
journey—and everything we experienced there—is a story for another time.
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