OCD as a reminder of the present

It has been a few days since I last posted.
We’ve had a lot of work, and I’ve been trying to spend more time outside after finishing for the day, because I know screen time doesn’t help my mental health.

But I can feel my OCD getting worse.
Almost every day.

I’m constantly in a hurry to finish everything, and it’s making me nervous.
There’s this awful feeling that it will never end —
that tasks just keep coming, one after another.

At the same time, something else is on my mind.
Something good. Exciting.
Something I’m not ready to share yet.

Hopefully by Friday, I’ll know if it’s really happening.
If it is — it will be a huge change for us.

So I’m here —
anxious and overwhelmed,
but also hopeful and eager.

Lately, I’ve also been scrolling on my phone more than usual.
So now I try to leave it inside and go out into the garden instead.

Sudoku.
Plants.
Playing with my little boy.

Small things that bring me back.

Today, I was scrolling again —
stressed about work —
when an intrusive thought suddenly hit.

It scared me so much that my hands started tingling.
I just wanted to hide.
To escape from it.

I know this is probably just a phase.
The result of the stress from the past days.

I really hope it will pass soon,
so I can clear my mind
and finally rest.

If you’re going through something similar —
you’re not alone.

It’s okay to pause.
It’s okay to take care of your mind.

If this changed the way you see even your hardest moments:

→ How I Learned Not to Believe Everything I Think  

→ The Power of Soft, Simple Moments