Slowly getting back to “normal“

 

For the first time in weeks, I can finally breathe again.

Finally, the intensity of the last few weeks is starting to ease. I managed to do most of the work concerning our business and made big decisions about the renovation of our future home. This took away a lot of the pressure I was feeling. At times, I felt like my brain was burning, as if my head was about to explode from all the thoughts and things I had to deal with.

My biggest motivation to keep going and not give up was thinking about the renovation of the house and what would be best for my family, especially my little boy. I really want a fresh start, and I feel that it would be a very important step for all of us. I know it might be a challenge for my mental health, but at the same time, it will help me grow and become more confident.

Last weekend, my father and his wife came to visit us. They spent four days in our village house, and we had a great time. The days passed between eating out in different places and enjoying homemade barbeque. Veni had this amazing idea and turned our garden into a movie theatre. The movie we chose to watch on the big screen was Jurassic Park. Everything was perfect — until it started to rain, but Veni didn’t give up. We moved everything under a small tent where our boys’ pool usually is. We did it just in time, as it soon started to rain heavily. It was such a beautiful night.

From this visit, I have a wonderful memory to keep. A very dear moment to my heart was when my little one called me to show what he had been drawing with his grandfather. I felt warmth spread through my chest. They both looked very happy and proud of themselves. I hope that, with time, they will build a great relationship.

If this feels like a quiet step forward:

→ I’m not gone  

→ The Power of Soft, Simple Moments