My brain tried to turn me into someone dangerous
Sometimes the scariest thing isn’t the thought
itself.
It’s how believable it feels.
One moment I was okay.
The next, my brain convinced me I was dangerous.
That was the moment I felt myself falling into
an invisible hole.
My whole body went numb.
My hands started shaking.
I got really nervous.
I wanted to turn back and fix imaginary things.
Things my brain kept convincing me were real.
At the same time, I wanted to run.
To run away from the thought.
To find a safe place.
But where could I feel safe when my own mind was
chasing me with intrusive thoughts?
The cage of intrusive thoughts feels like a
constant prison — something that can grab and torture you at any moment.
Escaping it can feel impossible.
So I focused on my breathing.
I tried to stay calm.
I started talking to my partner about it.
And the moment I said the thought out loud, I realized how absurd it sounded.
Even then, it still had power over me.
It still made me feel unsure.
Forty minutes have passed, and I still feel
uncomfortable.
I know the thought isn’t true.
But the emotions it brought were so powerful that I still can’t fully shake
them off.
Feelings are not facts.
Maybe healing isn’t becoming fearless.
Maybe it’s learning that a thought can exist
without becoming who you are.
If your
mind is also chasing you today, remember you don't have to run alone. You can
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