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For the days when everything feels too much

  Some days feel like a nightmare — full of pressure and rush. On those days I feel tired, overwhelmed, chased by tasks. It feels like my head is going to explode. Everything slips through my fingers and I lose control, unable to do anything and forced to do everything at the same time. The pressure squeezes me in a deadly hug, trying to drain all my energy and leave me barely breathing on the floor. It feels like there is a fog around me and my mind tries to see through it. Everything becomes too loud, too fast, or sometimes painfully slow. Anxiety fills my body like poison. When I feel that I’m losing the present from my sight, I try to stop and breathe. I take a small moment for myself — closing my eyes, trying to find the safe space in my soul, the refuge inside my body — and I tell myself: Everything will be fine. This will pass. You are strong enough. I try to return to the present by focusing on one task, just one thing I can do right now. Finishing that one small thi...
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I do not like events (usually)

 

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I am an owner of a micro company and a chairman of a Non-Government organization. It is not a big deal, I try to develop both of them, very slowly. I have a good idea for the NGO but I will wait a bit more to clear the concept in my mind and for my boy to start kindergarten so I have more time.

Last week there was an event, which I could not miss because it was organized by the NGO, and as a chairman of it I had to be there. It started well; as a former waitress I arranged the catering, made sure the seats in the conference room are okay and there is water for everybody. The whole organization process was amazing, loved it. However, when the guests started to come my stomach clenched. My staff gave me some whiskey for the nerves I took a sip or two and left it because the presentation was about to start.

It was all good. Thank God, I did not need to speak. They have asked me before that and I refused. There was even people from the local press, which made me so anxious. However, the presentation was over and the fun part started. Wine and food, lovely combination. I did not know more than half of the people there and felt so uncomfortable. Furthermore, mixing whiskey and wine is not wise! I did not get drunk, of course, but I was stressed that I might get, which was not helpful!

Everything finished for 2 hours. I thought it was 2 days. People were delighted. They loved the food, the wine from a local winery; it was a very useful event for everybody.

It took me 3 days to feel like myself, I felt drained from the event. I told my staff that I do not want to see people until Christmas and they laughed. I was not joking at all. Unfortunately, that is not possible so I am continuing to put my introvert side out of its comfort zone by communicating with human beings.

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